The last time I did this was when I posted a cycle of poems about the love I was feeling for the young woman I affectionately referred to as "My Lady" in various posts on Facebook. In these poems, I wanted to capture the multitude of feelings a man experiences as a new relationship begins, everything from physical desire to the deeply emotional. And, I shared them with the woman about whom they were written. And then I shared them with the rest of you.
I don't know if those poems were any good, but they were as true as anything I'd written up to that point in my life. When I look back at them, my memories of what I was thinking and feeling during that time are made fresh.
Now I find myself at a different stage and feel the need to express what is inside me. That relationship I held so dear came to an end a little over a year ago. The hows and whys I don't want to go into because ultimately they are only important to the two people involved. And, I don't want any displays of sympathy; I reached out to those personally closest to me for support during that difficult time, and, with their help (among other things), I got through the ordeal and have come out better as a result.
What I wish to do now is share another cycle of poems that I hope capture what the experience was like for me. There are three poems in total, and I worked on each one periodically over the last several months. They are a reflection of what was my perspective at given moments during the process of letting go and moving on. And, without explaining the poems too much (because there is no surer way to kill an expressive piece than by over explanation), they are not meant to place or deflect blame, and they only present one side of this experience - mine.
Finally, just to assuage any concerns people may have, the third poem is the most accurate depiction of my current mindset. I'm doing well. And, I am finding real peace and joy in my life for the first time in a very long time.
For E. - Goodbye...